Black Box Fears

DECIDE…..

You have formulated a plan far too many times and nothing has stuck. You have offered your undocumented, unlicensed, unwanted advice for others, but hasn’t stuck to a plan longer than seven days. Isn’t that the number of completion? When was the last time you started something and completed it?

Stop killing your SECOND CHANCES

Stop deciding for others and decide for YOURSELF

Stop starting OVER

Stop being the person that fits other people’s visions and not your OWN

Stop standing STILL

Stop not being ENOUGH

Stop living in the PAST

Stop being BROKEN

Stop DOUBTING yourself

Stop victimizing your triumphs

Stop BEATING yourself up

Stop moving BACKWARDS

Stop being FEARFUL

Stop accepting NO

Stop being SILENT

Stop GUESSING and DECIDE!!

Please know that you have ENOUGH Power to decide that it is time to put the peddle to the meddle.

#Decide #Believe #Cosistency #NoFears #YouAreEnough #MentalHealthisWealth #Selflove #Forward #Visions

~Fearless Passion

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When Our Melanin Speaks

When our Melanin Speaks… Permanent waterfalls on our stomach stretched by life. Coils around our temples shielding our individual thoughts. Thick arched eyebrows framed by expressions, but often misunderstood as “Angry Black Women” Rounded hips with attitude and ready to go to war against opinionated clichés, and unfairness!

When our Melanin speaks… the side of our lips curve right before we tell you who’s we are, and What we are! We are tired!

When our Melanin speaks…. we demand attention. So many untold levels. Often identifiable by titles, but often misunderstood simply by not being Enough!

When our Melanin speaks… it comes with amplified volume of unsung talent.

When our Melanin speaks…. We are not just BLACK; We are HUMAN We can’t become Leaders, if we are killed before we reach Puberty.

When our Melanin speaks…. it exposes the light that is shaded by darkness, but the light that shines, penetrates the root of evil.

When our Melanin speaks…. she quiets the raging storms, rejects the no’s, and resurrects empty spaces and lost souls.

When our Melanin speaks…. the residue exposing the air with unique aerosol. Filling the air with positivity.

When our Melanin speaks…the disproportions are carefully measured to reduce the unanswered questions. Some of the Melanin questions are rhetorical in nature. The melanin speaks…. For itself. Strength in numbers, courage by the freight load, inhumane talent, and mistakenly reduced by the ignorance of melanin absence.

When our Melanin speaks…. the suns bounce off the first layer of our skin and transforms into historical energy.

When our Melanin speaks…. the trees bend without the wind blowing. The birds fly in formation. When our Melanin speaks…. our enemies become footstools for us to reach for the next level that’s forced down our throats if what we can’t achieve.

When our Melanin speaks…. We are simply saying that Black Lives Matter… We can’t say this enough until it’s heard in your hearts, just as we scream it in your ears. When our Melanin speaks…She drips Soul

When our Melanin speaks… She writes a new chapter to the stories that were folded and sketch into the cemented grounds, stained by innocent blood.

When our Melanin speaks… she impregnates visions and birth passion to allow Freedom to truly ring.

When our Melanin speaks… she’s colorful and uniquely fashioned. When our Melanin speaks… she speaks in tongues; native, urban, sassy, dictated, spiritual, intellectual, courageous, and fearless.

When our Melanin speaks… puzzle pieces are scattered into places across the nation to complete one puzzle… Our Melanin is enriched with royalty and power! When our Melanin speaks… We are not OK!

#SisterswithMelanin #BLM #Queens #MondayVibes #WorldLove #Unity

~Fearless Passion

Mentally Crippled

Warning ⚠️ Long Post (You have time)

(3)represents growth, inspiration, inner guidance, and manifestation. The energy of joy and faith is embodied in this spiritual number. If you keep seeing Number 3 indicates that the Universe is giving you all the support and guidance you need to fulfill your desires and life mission.

I come to you with a confession!

Let me first clear my throat as I gather my thoughts of confessing what I’ve noticed over the course of (3) three, tres months. I get excited when I get a nudge of creativity. I would hear a message while trying to fall asleep. I would simply want to go to sleep. The nudges or messages would get louder and louder. (No I’m not crazy) I just checked 😆 Something said “put that notepad 📝 by your bed and put one in the bathroom. I need you to fill it up.” I didn’t listen. More time went by. I would get an increasing amount of nudges and messages. I still didn’t obey. Well the other day, I had THE WORSE headache ever. I said please make it stop! 🛑 I heard a message; You don’t listen! I was so desperate I sat down and waited. NOTHING! I was so tired 💤 my eyes started to burn really bad. I was so focused on cooling my eyes off with water, I didn’t notice my head wasn’t hurting. ….DISTRACTED…. I didn’t know what to think, so I just held the pen against the paper and sat on the floor. It was about (3:00) a.m. No nudges are messages.

Now I was worried! I just started closing my eyes and praying. I couldn’t remember ANY of the nudges are messages. AND as clear as day; I heard the message. What if you couldn’t hold the pen?? What if you lost your memory? What if you didn’t have a bed or bathroom? I gave you a simple task and you didn’t listen. Let me tell you this. Distractions will cause you to miss out. I know my Purpose; I know my Passion! I have spent months distracted and being disobedient that I could’ve missed out. Rather I am respected in my creativity; I will definitely be remembered!

🔥 We are so distracted from the pain we experience that we miss the message! We miss the lesson, we miss the plan!

🔥 You can’t hear “I have a Dream” without hearing Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.🥰

🔥 I encourage you to find out what your purpose is! Tell yourself: 🔥 I have a PURPOSE!
Press On, Press Forward, and Press Harder!

~Fearless Passion

PAUSING

This is the day I allowed myself to FALL.  I had to.  I was so off balance.  I could feel doubt slowly creeping into my thoughts.  I am known for knowing exactly what I want.  It is one of MY strongest assets.  My biggest weakness is PAUSING.

 

Have you ever watched a movie and pressed PAUSE?  Ever thought about how long the pause would last.  Well I tested this theory.  I pressed Pause last night, washed the dishes, vacuum the floor, ran a bath, and soaked.  I never soak in a bath.  My ADHD will not allow it.  I don’t eat soup either; it takes too long to finish.  I like this right now!  If I can’t get them right now; I PAUSE.  When I pause, I don’t have the same passion of finishing it when I return to it.

 

Ok… Back to me PAUSING this movie.  After I did all the things within a two-hour time frame.  I no longer had an interest to watch the movie.  Especially when it unPAUSED (not an official word) and turns off.  I return to “Previously Watched” I couldn’t even remember why I chose that movie in the first place.  Where was my train of thought to make me select a movie with no deep concept?  Not only that the TITLE was so predictable.  I hate those type of movies.  Why am I talking about PAUSING and movies?

I will tell you why….

 

We live in a world of CHOICES.  Some of our choices are thoroughly thought out, and some of our choices are emotional, careless, reckless, or even permanent. Although I can PAUSE at times; I am big on RESETTING.  It’s one of the things I take the most pride in.  If it wasn’t for the mentally resetting, I would still be stuck on PAUSE.  So, what happens when you PAUSE and can’t RESET?  Sometimes you must press PLAY and watch how it all unfolds.

 

Press Play…

 

If you are over 30 but under 100, you have experienced life. OR, life has experienced you.  Depends on if you a glass half full, or full glass but your tank is empty.  If your tired of pressing play and nothing happens, press Pause and allow your mind to Reset.  I assure you Reset is almost as rewarding as upgrading your phone.  You want to make sure the most things were saved; BUT you are ready to download new APPS, learn new ways, and hold something in your hand that you can take off PAUSE!

 

~Fearless Passion

 

AUTHENTIC PRIZE

When you start to doubt who God says you are— the enemy has won. To be an Authentic You, simply means you don’t need acceptance to validate your existence. A feeling of acceptance is not what God wanted us to feel by anyone that disrupts his plan. Know that the value you represent continuously increases your growth towards a higher elevation. Once you are in tune with the direction God wants to take you, you will not allow anyone OR anything to change that.

 

It’s incredible and humbling to know; that through it all, God can use ANYBODY! I would rather be used by God the father; than man, the boy. God can speak to YOU through PEOPLE in TOTALLY unexpected environments. YOU are here today because you are a Prize in the world! You are surrounded by people that can detect your Prize like qualities.

Here is what may be confusing; being a prize can also be troubling. When you allow people that don’t identify the qualities that makeup who you are… YOU QUESTION YOUR VALUE!

So, YOUR Mantra for 2020: “I am a Prize, I will be an Authentic ME, no matter what my past dictates, by ANY MEANS NECESSARY! “

#2020Vision #Plan #Movement #Prize #IAM #SpeakIt #ItsNecessary

~Fearless Passion   20/20 Vision 

Mirror… Mirror…

“Mirror Mirror”

 

  • Oh my God I need a makeover!
  • These color makes me look fat!
  • Take my picture from this angle!
  • Let me flip this magazine to find me a new face!

 

Listen!!!!! The mirror will only give you what you see internally.  Stop beating yourself up over what you think is acceptable by someone else.  Stop beating yourself up over what you haven’t become.  Stop beating yourself up over where you are.  Stop beating yourself over what you failed at.  Stop beating yourself up over what you lost. Stop beating yourself over not being chosen.  Stop beating yourself up over the choices you made.  Stop beating yourself up over the secrets, skeletons, and the images in your head that make you feel less than what you were created to be.

 

Mirror Mirror on the wall… Read my heart.  Change me internally so that what I see externally will be the true essence of beauty.  Mirror Mirror on the wall…. Reflect the essence of my being to not search for validation, but to believe in my heart of hearts that I was created in the image of excellence.  Mirror Mirror on the wall… Love me back, because I know that when I look at you, I will know that if I don’t like what I see; no one else will.

Mirror Mirror deliver me from the reflection of my imagination that can’t seem to think that I have the power to take the distorted images of my pain, and tell the person in the mirror —–I love you and you are ENOUGH!  Mirror Mirror on the wall… Who is the most loved of all!  ME, ME, ME!

 

~Fearless Passion

“GO TO HELL”

Is there anyone out there unafraid to raise your hand, or hands to admit that you have yelled those words, thought those words, or wished upon a star those words, TO YOUR MOST UNFAVORITE PERSON? Well; let me start off by saying that you are lying if  you don’t have at least one of these under your perfect umbrella of confessions.

!!!!GO TO HELL!!!!

That is the topic of a lot of our lives today.  We don’t want to admit it, we don’t want to address it, we just want to keep it tucked safely under our 48 hr peach fuzzed armpits.  (At least for me currently) You see I am forty-five/4 5/ four decades and five years, 16,425 days years old. Not one of those days that I can articulate; have been problem free.  You see I wanted to enter into the world feet first.  I didn’t smile as an infant, I gave you the side-eye. I always felt different.

I remember the first time I wanted to say/scream: “GO TO HELL” or perhaps “GO ALL THE WAY TO HELL” or maybe even “GO THE F&(* TO HELL” (you get the picture). I was only ten.  It’s funny how only a mere decade on this planet, I had the audacity to think those harsh words.  Now as an overripe adult; I am experiencing it. All relative to being angry at someone outside of my control.

You have to be careful of the words you plant in soil that will eventually grow.  What’s the saying: “be slow to speak”. Well let me start off by saying that you don’t have to be in a fiery furnace to go through hell.

You can experience hell in a relationship, job, church, household, kids, and especially in your mind.  The kind of HELL I’m going through is a complete sum of (I’m getting poked from every angle) No matter how much ice I use; I am disintegrating slowly. It wasn’t until recently I realized how much power I have tucked in Prefrontal Cortex to change things.  I shifted; I didn’t do that without prayer.

Life will make you think you are alone.  HELL will make you feel every bit of life.  Prayer will make you walk through the fire, and not get burned.  I encourage you to never go through HELL alone.  It is already crowded; so you don’t have to add to the population.

#life #vulnerability #motherhood #imbalance #nosuicide #pray #meditate #encouragement

 

~Fearless Passion

WHO ARE YOU?

Can you imagine if someone asked you to introduce yourself, and your response would be “I am the person I follow on Instagram” What would you say next?  That is really the world we are living in.  People are afraid to stand out, and be their authentic self.  If it makes you uncomfortable being yourself, imagine how it makes the receiver feel?   Could you trust you, if you can’t even be true to your own self?  (Things that make you clutch your pearls)

 

Can the real whoever you are, please STAND UP!  Stand up for yourself, your legacy, your rights, your authenticity, and your worth.  How much freedom would you feel being who you are supposed to be? When no one is looking, who are you?  That’s the person that should be introduced instead of the identity you are cloning from someone else.

 

Once upon a time, I compared myself to women that once upon time compared themselves to someone else.  Then I asked myself: Who are you?  My response was not a duplication to another description of themselves; it was my own.

 

Set yourself FREE, and be YOURSELF!  The real You is waiting to be introduced to the You, you have been hiding.

 

~Fearless Passion

#beyou #selfworth #standup #freedom #authenticity #Queen #fearless

“Don’t be about that life”

Denial rested its comfortable fragmented arms in Insecurity. They were well acquainted. They often found comfort in knowing that they would always be SOULMATES. Nothing could pull them apart. Pain introduced them to one another after Rejection. Now there is an intervention set up to make them aware of the damaging footprints, designed to decrease their Destiny. Denial and Insecurity have been trying for years to reproduce. They are now the proud parents of Bitterness.

“Don’t allow your pain to sprout vines to where you are called to be. Denial is undiagnosed Insecurities that cripples you into believing that Hope is unattainable. The only thing you should deny; is that a new beginning and core values are what you need to be BIGGER and BETTER in your new season.

Happy Growing!

 

~Fearless Passion

“THE BREAKDOWN & BREAKUP CAUSED A BREAKTHROUGH”

Losing a part of yourself after losing a relationship can cause withdrawal and a dangerous level of depression. Depression is not permanent just like the relationship that ended.  If you appreciate the wholeness of yourself without an individual, you will understand the message in the lesson.  Everything that distracts you is not meant to destroy you.  Listening to the inner spirit that whispers a comforting feeling soothes you even when your preference and longing is for what left.

 

The Breakup was a detour set up for where you needed to be positioned to go. Have you ever been lost trying to find a place in a hurry and the navigation systems recalculates your direction?  As frustrating as that may have been; it didn’t make you drive off a cliff.  In my previous experience, it caused me to pull over and try to use another app.  You can’t drive in a direction if you don’t know where you are going.  You will most likely see things you’ve never seen before, or run out of gas.

 

The Breakdown is a prerequisite of your Breakthrough.  The breakdown has to position you to surrender that you are more important than what caused you the pain.  Pain is a reminder that once you heal, your surviving skills are increased.  I would like to think that when you go through something, it was never meant to break you down and keep you down.  It was to simply build you up in order for you to find strength in the breakthrough.

 

If you have ever experienced a breakthrough; it can best be pronounced as holding your breath underwater, and finally coming up out of the water experience that first breath you take freely.  You are not defined by a verbal description of your breakup.  Learn how to turn your reality around and make it work best for you.  Life will always have trials and tribulations, but you going through them without the physical damage, makes for your tailored BREAKTHROUGH!

 

 

~Fearless Passion

 

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